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[Jul. 4th, 2008|03:46 am] |
What is important.
I've got it... Granted, it's a constant process, and I'm working it out with each new day... But for now, I think I've got it.
And although we just made it to Berlin, and Berlin is fucking great, I really can't wait to come home.
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[Jul. 3rd, 2008|01:45 pm] |
so a lot is happening right now. drove up from ashland oregon to portland to pick up my cousin. i hadnt seen him since before i was in highschool. he hasnt changed much and its definitely for the better. he is a total metal head and sings and shreds in a band. ive yet to hear them but im sure they are awesome. when he was in highschool his band opened for mastadon. then we drove to seattle and dropped him off to be with his dad. we are gonna meet up with them tonight. my uncle got us a hotel room with a jacuzzi and also got me and zack video cameras. hell yes, im stoked on that.
right now im sitting in this awesome house on this sweet island in washington called bainbridge. its fucking beautiful. the weather is totally overcast and it rains a little on and off and there was a thunderstorm last night. typical seattle weather i guess cus its like...a 30 minute ferry ride from here (where i got to drive the car on the boat and then off the boat. so sweet) but anyways... the reason why we are here is because we are visiting my neighbors that i used to hang out with all the time when my brother and i were 6 and 7 and they were in there 20s. they pretty much used to baby sit us but they told us and still tell us that they saw it as hanging out with the vidal boys. my brother and i were also ring bearers for 1 of their weddings. and they all have kids and its a total trip cus we havent seen each other since we were 9 and 10. so last night we all hung out and got pretty drunk. it was tight. we also smoked with them which was a total trip for us and them cus again we are totally not little kids anymore. so here is a picture of all of us hangin out back in the day at their house on their porch.
 im pointing to myself. the other kid is zack. bill is picking his nose. jon has the long hair and daren is the surfer looking guy who's house we are at.
this vacation so far is really tight. super down to be here though there are some troubles at home... :( |
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| As of August 1st... |
[Jul. 3rd, 2008|10:28 am] |
87601/2 Reading Street, Westchester CA, 90245
- A kitchen, breakfast nook, living room, bathroom and two bedrooms.
- Top unit with lots of windows
- Close to many delicious eating establishments
- Just 5 minutes to school
I've been dreaming moving out all year, but I'm happy I waited until now. Living at home this past year made transitioning into a new school way less stressful and I also put some serious mother-daughter/father-daughter bonding under my belt. I got much closer with both of them.
I'm way giddy for next year though. Dani should be a sweet roommate. She's been Katie's besty since I was in kindergarten and has sort of become part of the family. We have similar tastes in most things and both make a lot of work so hopefully our house will be a creative enviornment . Plus she's transferring to Otis for Fine Arts and Illustration, so we will be buddies at school too.
Last semester I was able to handle all my classes way better then first semester. I ended up with a 3.3 GPA. I was nervous about grades all semester so I made sure to keep my shit together. I need to keep it up now that I'm in my major (Digital Media). My classes for fall are Contemporary Art Survey, Media in motion 1, Perspectives of New Technology, Concept development and Creativity, An English Seminar I haven't picked yet, Concepts and Issues in Media Arts, and Traditional 2D animation as an elective. They sound pretty interesting. Especially concept development and Creativity. The evolution of an idea fascinates me. An innovative idea is more important than visual perfection. I think.
Anyways, I'm excited. Nervous and excited. |
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| You're so vain. |
[Jul. 3rd, 2008|12:14 am] |
I know we're not supposed to regret anything, but... I still regret last summer's actions because I am still alone, and still missing you. I am not afraid to admit that I was much happier when we were good friends. Life hasn't been the same without you, you big, stubborn asshole.
Love, Kimberly |
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[Jul. 2nd, 2008|06:55 pm] |
 he's home! |
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| On Racism. |
[Jul. 2nd, 2008|10:03 am] |
I'm an alright guy. I pay my dues. I Love my family. I put my pants on by stepping into them while they're on the floor (where i took them off) and pull them up. So technically, two legs at a time. All I'm saying is you and I aren't so different.
I probably have a smaller wang. (I'm looking at you Ericka.)
So why blame me for your problems? The racism you accuse me of is no different than the racism you spout. A woman died recently, and nobody helped her. This is a huge issue right? You would think people would go "Wow, something needs to change." Or even "These are my tax dollars at work?" My heart goes out to those who lost someone. I know the pain can be unbearable. You would think that at the very least, people would be sympathetic. And you would be wrong.
While its almost become a parody of itself, youtube comments shed some light on how people process this information. It turns out, it wasn't poor conditions at the institution. It wasn't under payed workers who lack the motivation to do their job. It wasn't sad. It wasn't a tragic example of how caught up people get in their own lives. It was white people. It was because she was black.
It takes a certain kind of person to post their opinions on the internet. (I don't exclude myself) You have to feel that your opinion is important. That it needs to be heard. That maybe your words will have some relevance to someone. Even the people who comment things like "photoshopped" or anything with "lulz" think that even though its been said before, when they do it its golden. You have to take yourself pretty seriously. Non-Chalant people don't comment on things.
So there are people out there that really think this is the work of "The white man's agenda?" I'm in shock. If I had known "let old women die" was nestled somewhere in between "Touch yourself" and "pick lint from belly-button" I would have probably changed my agenda around a bit. Its amazing how you can know more about me than myself. Isn't that the essence of bigotry? You think you're better than me based on the prejudiced notion that I'm a racist. The best part? Everyone in the video was black. The workers, the nurses, the patients, the guard. Everyone.
Man, those white people are resorting to mind control. I hate those guys. |
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[Jul. 2nd, 2008|10:14 am] |
Thus far, summer has treated me pretty well. There have been battles fought, and parties attended (even one wearing only a trashbag.) So I cant really complain. And despite my Mom formally kicking me out of her house, and my Dad having to move AGAIN I've been really happy finding little projects to start on my days off, and working hard at Barbie's so that I can make a lot of comission. The move in date for our apartment got pushed back to August 15th, so it looks like I'll be around for a few more weeks. I'm happy about this, but also really bummed. I miss Kirk, and I feel like we've been waiting so long to finally move in. We both have grown up in similar towns, and definately didnt take for granted all that our parents gave us throughout our childhoods. But at this point, I think we're both just ready to be out of our homes, and start our semi-independence. But in time, everything will fall into place.
Right now he isn't the only one I'm missing though. Last night it was just me and Chris, drinking into the morning, in an empty home in Lawndale. Grayson just got back from Japan last night, but Charlie, Josh, Zack, Marley, Kelby and Liv still remain abroad. I MISSSSS MYYY KELLLLBYYYY. |
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[Jul. 2nd, 2008|12:21 am] |
ludmilla & kloklovny.
4evr. |
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[Jun. 29th, 2008|08:37 pm] |
SO!!! im here in oregon. the trip is supposed to be a 10-12 hour drive. i fuckin pwnd it by making it in about 9 hours. going 80-90mph most of the time. the occasional 100 on the 5 is always fun... i did get a speeding ticket however while passing through sacramento. i was going 80 in a 65 but i saw the cop get into his car with his radar gun before i passed him. so im pretty sure he didnt clock me. there were too many cars to be able to pick mine out and clock me before i even passed the fucker. ill just go to traffic school. my mom also said she would help me pay the ticket cus its $151.
the weather up here is quite hot but my aunt and uncle always have the AC pumping a nice 75 degrees. its also still bright out. this trip doesnt seem like its gonna be too unbearable. my mom and my brother brought their computers so i should be able to snag them whenever i want.
nothing else i can really think about posting right now... ill probably be posting every day or every other day seeing as i will be doing something new everyday as well as getting bored as the night drags on.
duty now. |
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| of Lions |
[Jun. 29th, 2008|11:25 am] |
I think the biggest curse of being a human being is the ability, nay, out and out necessity to think about everything. Sentience is pretty simple (Biology aside)and I think that sometimes self awareness is just a little too much for me.
I see a tasty creature. Now, instead of indulging myself I look at what kind of creature it is. Does it have free will? Shouldn't eat it. Is it scared? Shouldn't eat it. Is it cute? Shouldn't eat it. Is it suffering? Shouldn't eat it. Is it fatty? Shouldn't eat it. Is it going to be an animal that is neither cute nor suffering, bad for me or scared? You especially shouldn't eat it then. The list goes on. This isn't a tirade about vegans either.
I see an opportunity to do something from which I derive some minuscule amount of joy. Does someone else want to do it first? Don't do it. Is it harmful to myself? Don't do it. Will it exclude someone else? Don't do it. Were there some words exchanged that suggest someone else might be uncomfortable about it? Its wrong.
My point is: Do you think Lions are happy? The answer: Who gives a shit. |
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[Jun. 29th, 2008|02:17 am] |
leaving in about 45 minutes to take this family trip. it should be quite interesting. hopefully my brother wont be at my mom's throat. thats what im mostly scared about.
i brought stuff to keep productive. i brought stuff to keep things interesting. hopefully the tirp turns out good.
last 2 weeks have been great. lots of bonding with people. i feel like i might be missed. i know least i will definitely miss my friends.
hope everybody has a totally bro'd out 4th of july here. |
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[Jun. 28th, 2008|09:58 am] |
the last few days have been quite interesting. definitely a lot to learn about. definitely for the better. im looking forward to everything getting better. in fact things are already getting a little better everyday.
im glad i can feel like i have friends again. i went to long thinking that it wasnt true. but for the first time in a long time i feel... accepted? maybe not that far but i definitely feel a part of something. all positives here.
so in less than 24 hours i will be embarking on a very strange family trip im driving up north to southern oregon, then up to a town near seattle. for the ride to oregon is gonna be just my brother, mother, and me. in oregon we are gonna pick up some cousins. and in seattle we are gonna meet with my uncle and my grandma who will be turning 86.
if youve met my mom...you've pretty much met my mom's family. not because they are always together, but because they are alway crazy. just amped up on nothing and have tons of energy and excitement toward the smallest things. im afraid their enthusiasm toward nothing may spoil the trip. but i am going to see my cousins whom i havent seen since my grandfather's funeral when i was 12. another bonus is that my crazy uncle who is just like my mom but with mad A.D.D. is buying my brother and i a video camera to make whatever we want. hopefully its a really rad one because he is into film making and in fact has made a few small films. (most of them are made for schools about drug education and they are actually way more informative because it teaches the science of each drug and not the "DONT DO DRUGS", "JUST SAY NO" aspect to it all.)
anyways. kinda excited for this trip. gonna miss some people. hopefully this isnt too crazy. |
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[Jun. 28th, 2008|01:16 am] |
hard. IV. fahq |
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[Jun. 27th, 2008|08:16 pm] |
summer in san luis obispo is very nice. the weather was fucking brutally hot for a little bit, but now its just pleasant. i work like 35-40 hours a week, which is a bit of a bummer, but i gotta make the dollas to pay the bills. i get two days off each week, but they are never back to back so i havent been able to come home yet, but i have already requested off the first weekend of august so i can see the sun kings play in san bruno park, and so i can pick up my dog to come live with me for a week or two while my family goes on a cruise. all the homies i work with are really boring breezies, they are all really immature and i get the feeling that they were all really involved in their high school drama department; you dig? summer quarter has begun and so i now have new radio shows:
monday 2-3pm - "a taste of honey" - one hour of the beatles each week tuesday (late monday night)12-1am - "the apple tree" - psychadelic music for the most part, probably some freakfolk and shit too friday 6-7pm - "label mates" - a different record label each week
stream live at kcpr.org
i am over the regular format shows, announcments are boring and experimental music doesnt sound good back to back with pop music
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[Jun. 26th, 2008|01:49 pm] |
I've spent the last two hours on eBay searching for two things: a camera and a guitar amp. Even though I've found good deals, I can't commit to buying anything because I feel like it'd be a waste. Why? Well, I'm pretty sure I own a camera and a guitar amp; they were gifts.
I want my stuff back. That's right--my stuff. |
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[Jun. 26th, 2008|02:09 am] |
i havent been sleeping much. so ive been trying to be somewhat productive. here is a part of my productivity.
http://www.last.fm/music/The+Wolf
everybody should get a last.fm i love knowing what music i listen to. |
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[Jun. 25th, 2008|11:02 am] |
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my boyfriend is so much better than yours. |
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[Jun. 24th, 2008|08:36 pm] |
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BRB RAEP |
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| tired and worn out |
[Jun. 24th, 2008|04:08 pm] |
Fall '08 Schedule:
-Philosophy of Human Nature -Western Traditions: 1500-Present -Survey of Mass Media -College Writing -Art of the Cinema
LMU ain't lookin' too bad anymore. orientation was jam-packed with ice breaker games and ridiculous cheers and dances, but that's to be expected i guess. aside from the shitty english class that everyone has to take this semester, i can dig on that schedule. waking up for an 8 or 9 a.m. class could be sticky balls, but i'm out by 11:30 every day. can't complaaaaaain, boi. |
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[Jun. 24th, 2008|10:43 am] |
This country is glorious beyond the notion of glory itself.
It's nice to finally be able to share this experience with friendsandpeersandstrangers.
LOTR the musical tonight?
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